How are you today?
Good.
What about you?
Fine.
I'm not fine.
My best friend is in the ICU and I can't stop thinking about her.
I can't stop thinking about what would happen if she dies.
I wouldn't be myself. I wouldn't be able to cope or deal with this anymore.
Because I've been the one standing at the edge of the cliff looking down. Sometimes yearning to jump.
And she....
She's always been the person holding me back.
She's my safety rope tied around my waist just incase I start to slip.
I need her.
Please don't die and leave me here.
I know we've always joked about if one of us does die the other person was required to bring cubed funeral potatoes to the funeral. But you can't die now. I don't know how to make those yet. And if I don't live up to my word. ... I'll never forgive myself.
Buddy..
I need you.
-Alec Hardison (ME)
There aren't really any words that will help, but I'm sorry anyway. So sorry.
ReplyDeletei understand this a lot more than you might think. my only advice is to try and see her if you can. there's nothing worse than the guilt and regret of not saying goodbye, just in case. good luck.
ReplyDeleteIt's gonna be okay. I love you. And her.
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